Asalamualaikum,
ari ni fami nk ckp yang fami da terime jawapan dari seorang yang fami cintai.
n jawapan nye adelah no. n fami tak kesa. coz.
i know she wont love me. but i know i still can keep loving her.
n i know that's not the best way for me now.
so i will keep loving her. until Ilahi show me the way.
ari ni fami nk imbas kembali.
kenangan - kenangan fami dengan dye.
wktu 1st time dye start conversation dengan fami.
it start like this.
mai : slm
:)
u know.
then fami balas
fami : w'salam :)
kalo ditunjukkan history kitorg nye conversation mmg bnyk. so fami xnk amik sume.
k. then kitorg mulenye menjadi kwn.
pelik. tanpe disangke kitorg boleh jd kwn.
then setiap ari kitorang chat. setiap ari mai temankan fami kt fb.
fami bnyk gak kwn2 pena kt fb.
n finally end up dengan x chat lg.
coz cume kwn pena.
fami pena ckp ngan mai.
fami kalo boleh xnk end up cm 2.
kalo boleh nk fren smpai bile2.
then lepas da biase chat dengan mai ari2.
hati fami mule risau.
coz fami da start menyukai dye.
n fami tauu.
mai tu kwn fami punye.
so fami xle amik.
yeahh.
then fami cube kwl diri slow2.
mcm2 kontreversi yang ade.
n finally mai sedih ngan kwn fami.
n btw kwn fami fami xle sebut name dye.
coz dye my bestfren.
kwn fami ni kire boyfren mai la.
n mai sngt cintekn dye :)
smpai skrg u know. she ever tell me.
when mai sad with afnan.
n yeah she ever mention to me.
" he break me up "
1st time fami bace fami mcm x pecaye.
coz fami tauu. mai suke sngt ngan kwn fami tu.
n kwn fami tu pon suke sngt kt mai.
then tetibe dye msg fami.
start that day. we keep messaging in phone.
almost a week or more. i think a week.
in one week.
maklumlah. henfon fami ni selalu kredit kene telan dengan celcom.
then bile dye start msg fami.
mesti fami akan topup enfon fami.
then lepas topup. kitorg chat la dalam 1/2 jam ke.
then stop. wktu tu mmg kredit fami bnyk lg.
tp celcom selalu telan. so akirnye fami xde kedit.
n setiap ari dye msg fami.
wktu tu dye tengah frust n sedih.
so fami pon tolonglah redakn,
even kengkadang fami pon kene tengking skit.
i patient coz i love her.
then semakin hari dye semakin baik.
fami pon bersyukurlah.
ade satu hari.
fami msg dye like this.
" k. btw.fami nk ckp.
fami sayang mai "
then u know what she reply.
she reply like this :
" kk. mai pown syg sngt at fami "
u know. i feel my world come back.
then ade satu ari. dye msg fami.
mcm biase la fami akan topup henfon fami.
wktu tu plak ari ujan.
n mak fami x galakkan naik motor.
so fami mmg keje berjalan je la.
nk gi mane2 sume berjalan even ade kerete n abg or ayah fami boleh hantar.
tp fami suke berjalan.
then fami jalan la tengah hujan tu,
but my father block my way coz it's raining.
that time fami rase gelisah.
coz fami x nk mai tungu lame fami balas msg rite.
then akirnye ayah fami mengalah n lepaskn fami.
lepas topup fami pon balik ruma.
then tetibe dye msg fami.
" but i still love him "
that's mean. dye da ok.
dye daripade sedih da jd normal.
mai. fami harap fami yang buat mai kembali normal.
n btw kalo betul fami yang tolong mai jd hepy semule.
fami nk mai tau fami bersyukur dpt buat orang yang fami syg ilang dye punye sedih.
then ari demi ari berlalu. ati rase sakit sngt wktu tu.
sampai fami buat 1 video.
like u guys know. i cant remember that video.
but it's story about mai n my fren.
it's a sad video actually.
i make it in cry.
k then ari demi ari fami da semakin baik.
n tibe lah ari jadi fami.
23/6.
fami pon rase nk satu adia yang istimewa.
fami nk rase cinte mai.
so fami beranikan diri.
ckp face 2 face with her.
well. actually not speak. jus show a paper.
written down " i love u maizatul asheeda "
then she smile.
i happy with the smile.
then dye balik ke pangkuan kwn2 dye.
n kwn2 fami keluar . fami x sngke diorang spy.
n mai amat trauma that time. n mara fami.
mai. i relly sory that time.
it's not what i expected.
then mulai ari tu.fami rase sedih.
coz bnyk lg fami nk ckpkn.
tapi fami kaku.
then ari demi ari ., fami tunggu wktu yang sesuai.
n finally i got the day.
19/7.
that day.
i speak face 2 face with her.
fami ckp depan depan dye.
" fami melututkan diri fami.
n hulurkn chocolate yang fami beli.
n say the word.
maizatul asheeda i love u "
then dye jumpe ngan kwn dye. maybe dye terkejut.
that's why i ask wether she redy or not.
sory if u not redy that time mai.
then fami suruh dye terime choc tu.
coz bnyk kenangan fami ngan choc tu even 1 ari.
well. u know what is my memories with that choc ?
well. bukannye kenangan penting pon.
cume kenangan wktu fami nk beli choc tu je.
mule2 fami da beli choc.
then tetibe dye melt down wktu nk ks.
so fami delay perjumpaan.
then fami belila baru. wktu tu jugak.
kwn fami kate kedai bwh ade jual .
so mintk dye beli ari tu jugak.
then tetibe dye kte abis.
so fami tnye lg. ade kedai lain x.
then dye kte. xde.,
so fami xle nk buat ape.
fami pon balik Kampung Melayu dari Majidi with walking along the road.
to search a choc.
fami pergi petronas dulu. tngok tkde.
then pegi esso. ( straite dari petronas lalu sebela highway tu )
pon tkde. then akirnye fami pegi kedai dekat2 dengan ruma fami.
then bwk balik ke Majidi n kasi kwn fami.
fami amik mase lame jugak. like 40 minutes.
then after i give my fren that choc.
i back my home n prepare for tomorrow.
but. wktu tu.
fami bermain dengan fikiran fami.
fami tk tau. fami nk teruskn or tk.
then tetibe tk tau la.
ape yang fikiran fami fikirkan.
buat fami rase sedih .
n tetibe fikiran fami suruh fami lakukan.
so fami pon buat lah.
face 2 face say with her.
it's like a week i think about that.
n btw.
actually fami nk kasi ari Jumaat. but that time she alredy get to her fren's house.
then i ask my fren. bile dorg masuk .
baru je. dlm 5 minit.
actually fami leh smpai lg awal dari 5 minit.
tapi. fami jalan tadi. tetibe jalan tu tutup.
so kene patah balik n amik jalan lain. thats why im late.
fami pon tungu depan taman. fami ingat kwn fami ajak main bola . so.
fami pon pegi court.
tngok die tkde.
then patah balik ke taman. n tunggu dye lg depan ruma kwn dye tu.
well. ruma tu bwh taman je. fami tungu la kt taman tu.
sambil tenung ke arah ruma tu. n berkate.
" mai, bile nk keluar "
then tetibe dye pnye boyfren ni ( my bestfren )
ask me if i play football today.,
so fami pon jalan lah ke court ..
then tngok dye tkde. so fami patah balik ke taman semule.
jarak dye korang boleh tnye orang2 yang duduk di majidi.
all i do is walk.
then dlm pukul 4.30 PM fami tunggu.
tngok dye tk keluar. so fami pon baliklah.
n suruh smpaikan salam fami kt dye,
fami pesan kt kawan fami
tp dye kte dye tk sampaikan.
so fami pon tk kesa.
maybe bukan rezeki.
then itulah fami meet her in monday.
after that day. she ask me to w8 for her answer.
and fami tunggu lah.
well. tkde lah berape lame.
ari ni fami da dapat jawapan tu.
n dye kte " I tried but I failed "
fami tkle ks penuh coz fami da del msg tu. coz fami tknk buat hati fami teringat - ingat kt msg tu.
biarlah msg- msg yang menyenangkan ati fami je daripade dye.
itu yang fami ingat.
then fami reply " k tkpe. but i still can keep loving u until Ilahi show me the way rite ? "
coz i know i cant forget heer in a little time.
fami tk pena sangke fami sanggup cari dye 1 Majidi sebanyak due pusingan lepas dye ghaib dari pandangan fami untuk melihat senyuman dye. hurm.
fami pon tk pena sangke.
my 1st love end up like this.
well not my 1st love actually.
kire mcm.
1st time fami struggle gile2 untuk dapatkan seorang perempuan yang fami cintai.
fami tk pena buat keje gile mcm ni.
tk pena seumur idup.
k la mai. last word from me.
" I hope we can still be a fren , and gudbye. "
U know i can't forget u in a short time :')